Party of 6??

I had my first OB appointment today and due to a few factors, I am scheduled for an ultrasound tomorrow morning to determine if it's twins! YIKES!! He/she/they were conceived without help and there is little family history of twins so I am thrown off to say the least. I have had inklings that something was up from the time of my positive pregnancy test yet I thought I was just bonkers. My intuition is hardly right! :)
Personally, I would choose to just have just one (even though it doesn't matter what we think at this point). I love everything about the baby stage and this is our last and I was ready to enjoy it to the fullest. With Julia (our first), I experienced some postpartum issues. It turned out to be a year of learning who I was as a mom. When Bella came along, I knew how I wanted to parent and truly enjoyed her. Yet, I was also raising a 2 1/2 yr old so it was a busy year. This time, I know exactly what I am doing and my kids are old enough that I will be able to enjoy our last little bundle of joy to the fullest. I am excited to have a baby again! I am excited to nurse again, wear the baby in the sling, sleep with the baby, etc. With twins, it seems like things like feeding and sleeping become true WORK!
That being said, I would love to have twin toddlers running around and for this baby to have a playmate like Julia and Bella have become. It would make our family quite complete and we would be done! After writing this out, I realized that if I can survive the first year, then twins would be a true blessing and a lot of fun in our house. Thanks for listening to my online journal entry! It helps putting thoughts into words- even if its online for the world to see. I hesitated to even post this (seems so personal) but I use my blog as my own journal these days.
By the way, I hope I didn't offend any mothers of twins. I truly applaud any mother of multiples.